Jaysun-Jaysun! :) I just wanted to let you know that our phone in the dorm room has died. Until I buy another one or fix it, I guess we can talk on here, yes? :) Sorry bout the inconvenience. Anyway, tell me about school/life/asian-ness.
These are the classes I'm taking now: Humanities 324 (blah), German 351 (yay), Film Appreciation (big yay), Multimedia 151 (video stuff), and Multimedia 222 (Flash).
My Grandparents are moved down to Chapel Hill now and Bryce is in China. We've had a little snow here but it's all melted now (haven't missed any class yet). I've been playing Tron 2.0 on my computer because I got more memory on my computer now. It's pretty sweet.
Hope I can talk to you again soon. I'll let ya know when I have a phone!
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excerpt from "Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul"

"Please Hear What I'm Not Saying" (author unknown)

Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature to me,
but don't be fooled.
For God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.
But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface
is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies no confusion and fear and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.

I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
My only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
I don't like to hide.
I don't like to play superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me,
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the bland stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.

Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings, very small wings,
very feeble wings,
but wings!
With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.

Who am I, you may wonder.
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man you meet,
and I am every woman you meet.
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Hey Jaysun! I found this fun game online. It's like Diablo, but it's really small and cute, and quick loading since it's made with just HTML and Javascript.
Go here to play. If you choose Arcade mode, you'll just play and it won't save your game. If you do career mode, you can save a character. Have fun! Let me know how your UC applications are going.
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cool word

schadenfreude [n. SHAW-den-froy-duh] Taking malicious satisfaction in another person's troubles is schadenfreude. Even though there may be some guilt involved, this noun comes in handy when someone feels glee or gloats over another person's suffering. Example: "She had a feeling of schadenfreude when the boy who dumped her was unable to find a date for the prom."
Sometimes capitalized, schadenfreude is a compound of two German words: schaden (damage) and freude (joy). Although this word was in use in the German language early in the 19th century, its first appearance in English is thought to be 1895.
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back 2 school

Hi!! How was the beach? Too many sands for you?! ;) You are surviving the Taiwan humidity alright, I guess? Tell me about the elementary school reunion, too.
That is really cool Kitaro is performing! I think it would be amazing to see him in concert, or any artist I like for that matter :)
It's great to be back at UNCA. I kinda felt rushed at first because we didn't have much to just chill out before classes started last Wednesday. Oh well. I'm taking some cool classes this year like Multimedia 121 and Computer Science 244. Both are about webpage design; the 121 focuses more on the artistic side and the comp sci focuses on coding. I feel so cool taking these classes with their spiffy computers (huge flat screen, G4 Macs). With much love to Ms. Bradley, it's definately a step above Web Graphics. heh. By the way, Ms. Sharp noticed that we designed the CHHS homepage and says we did a good job. She asks about you at church and stuff :)
Alex is taking a Tolkien class that's all about LOTR! I'll tell you about it after he's had some classes. I wish I could show him that book I gave you about Ring mythology.
Did I tell you I got my digital camera (finally)? :) I'll post some pics real soon!
I have a cute picture of us on my desk in my dorm room from graduation. It makes me miss my Asian Sensation.
Hope you're having fun in the Mystical Lands.
Ooh, I can see the sunset from our window...
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Kitaro is coming to Taipei to perform! Remember the CD you burned for me? If it wasn't for that, I wouldn't know who Kitaro is.
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In Taiwan!

Hey there! I'm going to the beach for two days. Things have been going fine here. Don't know where to start. Hot and humid as usual. Anyway, I'll post more stuff when I'm not sharing the computer. (sigh) I'll survive! (I hope so.)
Tell me about the new semester.
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cool site

I was looking up for pictures from Nausicaa and I found this really nice website. (You might have seen it before.) I like the color, the font, the artworks, just the whole feel and look of it. I love it! Here's the link:
I haven't seen the whole site yet, but I will try to pick up some ideas for our quote page. By the way, I though we could use different fonts for each category of quotes and have some relevant pics beside them. I'll talk to you this weekend.
As for the digital camera, I'll have to ask my friend and my dad about it. Not my expertise.
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Heya! What's goin on, summer school girl? Tried sending you the Quote page I did again, but I think I'll just upload it to my website so you can see what it looks like.
I just wanted to post so you know I'm still alive lol. I finally got to go to Asheville this past weekend, which is why I wasn't here when you called. We went downtown for the big street festival and also hiked a little bit in the mountains. I finally got to see Alex again, and I managed to escape getting poison ivy. All in all, a good weekend!
By the way, any last suggestions on what digital camera I should buy? I'm probably going to get it this weekend.
Hope to talk to ya soon, Asian Sensation! heh
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